MUSIC IN MY LIFE

Were you once a joyful and happy kind of kid and then shit happened? Now all your joy and happiness are only on the surface, just hidden behind your big fake smiles. Yeah I was one of those kid. Caught up with my demons called overthinking, anxiety, fear and depression a long time before are now a huge part of my lifestyle. And to survive in this world with them is a huge task, if i can say so. So, the big guy sitting up there sent his right hand to me and man, what a good timing his right hand had. If you don’t know he goes by the name, ‘MUSIC.’

I was a big fan of music from the starting but now it has become much more for me. It holds a deep meaning to my soul. When I was very lonely, then the melodies coming out of my earphones held my hands tightly and now they give me a melodious hug, whenever i need one.

There are times when emotions inside me get too strong and get a hold over me, then like a knight in shining armour music directs them to creativity flowing through my pen. When this world becomes too much, then music creates a breathable space and when this world feels too empty, then i can feel it dancing just behind my ears. When joy becomes too much it dances with me and when pain makes me to crawl then it gives me a shoulder to hang on.

I can imagine my world with and without many things but there cannot be a world for me without music. Now i don’t go in search of music, it comes to me. It comes to me when i am in need like a most beloved best friend. It comes with the winds when I’m standing with my eyes closed. It comes with the rains when I’m surrounded in my willows. It comes with the words when my lips whisper them loud. It comes with darkness and make things more dark and it comes with light and makes it more bright.

The relationship with music is like, if my ears are closed then my breath feel it. If my fingers are stiff then my feet follow the beats. Now I can be alone but can never be lonely. Slowly slowly music and i are becoming one and there will be a day when we will be one.